Reflection ch 4 :BREAKDOWN:

1 froze; he turned around slowly, "What?"
"You heard me," I folded my arms, "I know exactly what you did. Why, exactly, I don't know."
He glared at me, "8, leave us be, I want this one to myself." Oh jeez.
8 wasn't willing but he did as 1 asked. Being alone in a room with 1 wasn't the best feeling ever, considering what this was about, "Now, tell me, your freaky-ness. What exactly did I do?"
I balled my fist, "you took away our friend. You got rid of 2! You sent him in the emptiness to DIE!"
He huffed, "I did nothing of the sort. I sent him to SCOUT. There's a difference."
"DON'T LIE TO ME! I KNOW WHAT YOU DID!" I yelled and I think 1 JUMPED… out of fear.
He stood up, straightened his hat, "you can't prove it, can you?" he sneered.
Frozen, I knew I couldn't, my hands started shaking; his piercing gaze knew I couldn't prove it; he was just pushing it now.
His cape flew behind him as he came face to face with me, "Nobody believes you, you're crazy, you only have friends because of the pity you receive. FACE IT, you were nothing from the start and you still are!"
I wanted to pour out in tears, "you're wrong…"
"Prove THAT, then." He was so close I could barely breathe. Instead of trying, I hit the floor, pressured and panicking. He walked around, "Huff, disgraceful." He wrapped his staff around my neck and came up to my face and whispered, "Get. Out."  Fearfully, I shakily got to my feet and fell onto my wall, panting and shaking. This is what happens when you push me to my pressure point, I can't breathe and the whole world becomes a hazy blur. At that moment I needed someone-something-anything to hold.
I curled up in the far corner of the room, feeling lonely inside as the room spun around me, faster and faster, making me feel crowded inside. "w-w-w-whhhyyyy…?" I huffed, "I wanna go home…." I turned to the wall, "go to my room, and go to MY source…" I sprawled across the floor, still shivering. Was I really going to listen to 1? I'm crazy... he's right… 1's right for a change… I AM NOTHING.
I stranded myself in that corner for as long as possible. In little time at all, 5 peered around the door, "6? 6, are you okay?" he spotted me in the corner, still panting and balled up, "6, it's been DAYS, tell me what's wrong."
I looked up at him, "DAYS?"
"Yeah, it's been THREE days," he knelt to my level, "what's wrong? I won't leave until I get an answer."
I was fearful in his eyes, "f-f-f-5… why am I nothing…?"
He was surprised by my question, but he wrapped me in a tight hug and caressed me, "6, you're not nothing… why would you think that?"
"Because 1 said that…" I dug my nibs into the wood floor before I took an odd breath in.
"6, you should know better. 1 has no idea what he's talking about…" he put his hand under my chin, "and don't dig your hands in the wood, that'll mess you up!" I stopped upon his request, still looking down, "don't try to hurt yourself, okay?" he weakly smiled.
"O-okay…" I looked down again.
"That's not it, is it?" I shook no, "well then, what's left to tell?"
I sighed, "5, 1 sent 2 out there… he sent 2 out to die."
"Pfftt, I know 1's heartless but he wouldn't go THAT far."
"But he DID-"
"6, 1 sent 2 to SCOUT. Don't you think 2 would've said so if he was sent to DIE."
"You aren't listening to me!"
"I can here you just fine." 5's stature figure shadowed over, looking down on me, fierce and grim.  I gasped for air, curling up again.
I sat there in silence yet again. If I didn't have him to back me up, I guess I have nobody here.
"6, it's not that I don't believe you, it's… you've been wrong before."
That hurt.
The disheartened expression on my face worsened. "I've been wrong before?" I was mad now. I faced him, "I'VE BEEN WRONG BEFORE??" I outbursted, now up on my feet and in 5's face, "LISTEN, YOU! I don't CARE if you think I'm crazy because I know I'm right deep down inside, if you fail to see that, than I have no words for you but to leave me ALONE!"
5 stared at me, shocked. But of course, the man has to have his chance to snap back, "Whoa, WHOA. Dude, I didn't-"
"I said LEAVE ME ALONE."
Now he was as mad at me, "Hey, I'm trying to help! That's all I want, To HELP. If you took your head out of the skies for a sec, you would see that!"
"How... COULD YOU-"I didn't react, I didn't shove him like I wanted to, I didn't shred him into a ball of yarn… He pushed me…To the floor.
And instead of crying, which I eventually would (when nobody's looking), I ran away. Out of anyone's sight.
"GO AHEAD, RUN AWAY! YOU WON'T LAST TWO MINUTES OUT THERE!" 5 screamed.
My heart is now officially broken.